Last week I felt like I had really gotten into a rhythm with the blog. I had lots of ideas and fun topics I wanted to write about. I have been taking lots of pictures of life and I was so excited to document them here. But then other things started happening and life sort of got in the way.
Do you ever feel that way? That life gets in the way? Things are going so great. You’re marriage is functioning in a healthy way. You’re busy but loving it. You feel blessed by sweet friendships and many opportunities to grow. Then life hits.
Life hits hard.
And I didn’t want to blog anymore. It was almost like I wanted so badly to block it out that I was overtaken by fear. I couldn’t write about hard times. Why did I feel like I should only blog about happy things? Because it’s human nature to put up a front – to show the world that everything is wonderful and happy and nothing ever goes wrong. Even though I know that this world is broken and hurting and cannot function in peace because of sin and “human nature” I feel that I should come off as well put together and fine. I know it’s impossible to be “perfect” but every bit of me was afraid to be honest – afraid to break face.
Life right now is hard. It’s confusing. It’s frustrating. It’s uncontrollable.
And it’s ok.
There are storms brewing outside and my house is (relatively) clean. My husband is working harder for our family than I have ever seen before. He is teaching me every single day and we are growing together. My puppy is perfect… even though he’s wild and sometimes naughty. We are healthy and happy. We laugh and we cry. And it’s ok.
Wanna know a secret?
I’m petrified of storms. Lightning is flashing and thunder is roaring outside and I am petrified. So it’s my queue to sign off.
Love you all!
Be back soon – with more transparency.