Mornings with Dwayne

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On the mornings that I don’t have to get moving for work, Dwayne and I take it slow. He wakes up and plays in his crib for awhile – until he gets fussy – then we get up and make eggs. Dwayne is a big breakfast kid so as soon as he’s out of his crib he wants to be in his highchair.

He’s usually awake for about 2 hours. If we have no where we need to be he stays in his jammies and just plays around the house.

Part of the reason I did the social media fast was because I felt like I was missing out on time with Dwayne because of my phone. Working part time already takes away my time with him so when I’m home I want to be present.

I see the biggest change in our slow mornings at home.

Dwayne will play on his own but he is showing me things and talking to me and looking at me for affirmation when he does something new.

I missed some of that before, checking my feeds.

I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again, but keeping this child alive and well has been the sweetest privilege and my greatest accomplishment to date. I want to be my best self for my family. It’s a journey and I’m not there yet and most days it feels like I have a really long way to go, but a small change gets me that much closer.

There is a lot happening in my heart right now. I don’t know exactly what it is yet, but I’m excited and anxious to learn what God has in store for me.

Happy Day!