We turned our heat on for the first (ok, second) time this morning because it was 55 degrees in here! What?! Needless to say, it was very VERY difficult to get out from under the covers this morning. The cold lingered on the other side and I was nice and toasty on the inside. Really tough mental battle, probably the toughest I’ve faced all day. Ha!
Every time a new season rolls around I can think of all the wonderful things I love about it. Fall: leaves, cooler temperatures, pumpkin everything, decorations, holidays approaching… And then I wake up to 55 degrees and I remember that I am miserable in the cold weather. It’s like my body isn’t capable of keeping me warm when the outside temperature is lower than 65. Currently wearing three layers… yep and it’s 68 in our house now…
So before Winter comes and I even begin to tell you all the things I love about it (like Christmas, and New Years, and SNOW) I want to be honest and let you know that I am miserable in the cold. But somehow I still love it.
I love walking outside from the warmth and almost losing my breath from the crisp cold air – for about 2 seconds and then every ounce of my body is numb.
I love playing in the fresh snow – for about ten minutes.
This is probably a premature Winter post, but honestly Fall in Kansas can be very similar to Winter. So it all feels same to me. Cold.
But you know what I love even more about Fall and Winter? Getting warm after being frozen.
Hot chocolate, hot tea, blankets, heated blankets, my husbands arms, and fires in the fireplace (we don’t have one, but I love them)…
I have always been the type of person who looks to the future, looks forward to the next thing. I also tend to look back at my life too frequently. I dwell on things that happened in the past and think of all the things I could have done. What I’ve been learning though and what all this talk about Winter has helped me to see more clearly is that none of that matters. What matters is today, right now, this moment. Today it’s cold, and tomorrow it will be warm and next year the seasons will change again.
As I sit here, wrapped up in my blanket, attempting to sort through my thoughts, I am reminded that God is working in my heart. He is changing me and teaching me.
“Forget the former things; Do no dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Do you not perceive it?” Isaiah 43:18-19
The Lord is doing a new thing in my life – in Mike and I’s life – and I can only pray that I don’t miss it. That I don’t focus on the future and on the past so much that I miss out on what is happening right now.
So the pep talk I am telling myself right now is “Even though it’s freezing outside and you’re ‘miserable’ you have so much and you’re learning so much and being shaped into a Godly woman who Mike calls ‘wife’. Do not think of yesterday or look too far into the future. Do not freak out about money. Do not freak out about the unknown. Do not freak out. He is looking out for you.”
End pep talk. So much good is happening right now, and I really think I’m getting my joy back.
Thankful for the 31 day challenge – scripture has been so comforting lately – as it should be.
Happy Tuesday! We’re off to some volleyball games and then I have bible study later tonight. The 2nd half of our proposal will hopefully be up later this week.